Goodbye az, hello cali.

Getting off work is the best thing about fridays XD

T420

Well I haven't written anything in a while so i have a lot of ground to cover. First i'd like to talk about Team 420 or as we call it T420.

A lot happened after my 20th birthday. Most of it was cause of my ex (she was quite fucked up) but shes gone now (peace, poof, be gone, get the hell out of my face.)

When I realized I hit rock bottom with how depressed i was and not having any friends to talk to, I did what anyone with all the time in the world would do... I started smoking the mary jane ;)

This, believe it or not helped me a lot. Given it didn't help with everything (like money issues lol) but it did a lot. I notice myself becoming peaceful, eating more, working out more, hell I even gain a few pounds.

A short time after starting i got a visit from my neighbor.

I knew her cause she was one of my

ex's sister. We never really talk or ever hung out. I asked her if she still smoked and we became friends almost instantly. We were both going through problems with relationships and this is why we clicked, we would share our experiences, values, wants and we would bag on the people that hurt us.

She became my bff as they say, real quick and in turn we created Team 420 (means a good smoke between friends.) You can call it a club or whatever but really it's all friends and family, getting together and smoking with intent for peace. It doesn't matter if we talk at all in a day, we're family.

The summer though was when the adventures started...

Well a lot has happened, not all bad but not all good.
Let me start with my love.. We're back together but it feels like we're holding on by a string. We've been fighting like cats and dogs. I still feel like I'm blind when it comes to how she feels. She's suppose to come up today and I know she will (she's good about that). I really can't wait to see her but I really hope we don't fight. It just hurts fighting all the time. I think her and I can get over this, it will just take time.
On Saturday me and some friends went up to San Francesco and that was great. I love that place. Everyone has their own view and not afraid to tell you all of them. SF is a place that really is the best you can get to real freedom. While I was there I got to take random photos with random people (that made the day so much more fun).
I'm still making a attempt to get in shape but I'm down a bike so all I get to do is running (and I'm not about to run 20 miles or even five at that).
My mother got herself a man and I'm glad. She seems very happy. It really brightens my day to see her happy, even if my day has been shitty. Now there is one thing about this guy... He's busy, always doing something. To tell the truth I get tired watching him. He's a funny guy and a good one to.
Other then that I'm still just getting by but I think my life is starting to fall in line.

Well my bed is calling my name.
So peace to everyone in computer land.

Lost and lovin' it

Well my idea of spending a nice day at a lake with no water, didn't work Wednesday. What i thought was going to be a five mile ride turn to twenty. That sounds like a long way but it really was nice. I got time to clear my head.
The reason I started riding was to clear my head. A lot has happen and since no one really reads this thing, I think i can speak my mind.
Let my start with my ex. We were having problems just before my birthday (well I guess the problems have been going on, I'm blind as a bat in that area i guess) and when my birthday came around the bomb was dropped. I'm not mad at her or have any bad thoughts toward her, I do still love her and respect what she wants.
Like I said I've been riding a lot and looking good if i don't say so myself :) Well I can tell you about it but to tell the truth I didn't mind getting lost. It's almost like having nothing to lost. The farther i go the clearing my head gets, the more i learn, the more powerful i become. It's quite a feeling and when you came to that place where you know you have no clue where you are you just become one, your not mad, you don't mind what has happened in your past. I can say once you get to that point you can no longer be mad and have hate because none of it matters; their gone, your gone.

Just falling in a rough patch... Feel's like rocks.

Well this old man on the hill still isn't old and still does not live on the hill, but I'm on my way. I'm growing my hair out, okay given I look like the zig-zag guy and anyways I would rather take that.
It's good to see Bush out of the White House. I was really thinking the world was going to end before his term. Obama has already done a lot in two days. His job is going to be a hard one.
I've hit a complete writer's block when it comes to my book. I'm having a hard time making the characters more 3D. I don't really know what to say other then writing is not always easy.
One thing before I let you go. I came across a browser that is great. The name; Flock, Google it, it has cool tools like quick blog and quick log in for MySpace and Facebook. It's pretty cool.